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Blegh! by Penanggalan Blegh! by Penanggalan
Feeling like this a lot lately, mostly relating to people. Attempting to bond with people always winds up just putting a bad taste in my mouth. Not worth these awful feelings of being disgusted, bitter, appalled, offended, and/or generally put off... Some days, it feels like I should just never attempt to crawl out of my clowny, roachy cave. Reaching out only tends to leave me worse off than if I were to just keep to myself.

Believe it or not, I'm a very happy person... when I only socialize with my family, boyfriend, and my few real-life friends. My life is precisely how I've always wanted it, and really, absolutely nothing of any importance has happened to give me any excuse for being depressive/disappointed. I just need to stop with this whole... optimistic socialization bullshit and I'll be just fine. :P

Regardless of how people have made me feel lately, I really do appreciate all my acquaintances and how polite and friendly you guys are to me. Thank you. *slithers back into hiding*
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AThiefandAStalker Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2012
I do so love your coloring. It looks...shiny isn't the right word,'s like your colors are a delicious liquid that one could bathe in and drink. (Oh, lordy, what the heck am I saying?)

Socializing is so hard. I've got a handful of mental and physical problems, and I've had friends who just didn't understand that I couldn't do certain things, or thought I just needed to "get out more". (Nooo, PTSD doesn't work that way.)

I love my two dear friends more than anything in the world. If they needed an organ, I'd give to 'em. But I still wish I knew a few more people, but...I don't need anymore heartbreak, thanks.

Lordy loo, long rambling clap trap of a comment I LIKE YOUR STUFF AND I AGREE THAT PEOPLE ARE WEIRD.
Aghorishaivite Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2012  Professional Writer
I can relate!
KeresaLea Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2012   Digital Artist
I've had very similar feelings about the rest of the world, and myself, mostly related to expectations. It's a mindset for me I think, I'm trying to change that mindset, less expecting and more of a truly open mind. I read something about trying to smile setting off the same chemicals in your brain as a real smile does, maybe if we work it enough, it will flow again?:) I wish you the best in it getting better for you :hug:
bear48 Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012  Professional
nice job
CurseReaper Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012
Cutest "Blegh" ever. lol!
Chevaliar Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012
Yes, I do wish you wouldn't stress over this so much. Your friends you have are all about quality; not quantity. I'd rather have two or three (or even less) friends who are with me through thick and thin; rather than dozens of unworthy, depressing, posers. They belong in their own little 'cliques' together in their own misery. You're doing JUST fine....and you're loved by those who matter...:D
yukidogzombie Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012   Traditional Artist
really nice & it is really hard & kinda of scary talking to people in person
ToSealOurFate Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012   Digital Artist
I am so jealous of your ability to draw mouths ._. Mine always look like asdfghdfgh
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