Feeling like this a lot lately, mostly relating to people. Attempting to bond with people always winds up just putting a bad taste in my mouth. Not worth these awful feelings of being disgusted, bitter, appalled, offended, and/or generally put off... Some days, it feels like I should just never attempt to crawl out of my clowny, roachy cave. Reaching out only tends to leave me worse off than if I were to just keep to myself.
Believe it or not, I'm a very happy person... when I only socialize with my family, boyfriend, and my few real-life friends. My life is precisely how I've always wanted it, and really, absolutely nothing of any importance has happened to give me any excuse for being depressive/disappointed. I just need to stop with this whole... optimistic socialization bullshit and I'll be just fine.
Regardless of how people have made me feel lately, I really do appreciate all my acquaintances and how polite and friendly you guys are to me. Thank you. *slithers back into hiding*